Wednesday, February 15, 2006

Last Year's Toy This November

How my heart breaks for you,
longs for you.

The fear is so real.
The fear that I'll never again hear your voice,
never again see your smile,
never again with you share a day,
never again,
no never again.

The thought of you,
the idea of you,
the dream of you,
only a fairytale,
just a mere fairytale.
Something we believed as children,
something that now we must let go.

Why do I want you so?
God has given me many others to replace you,
Many others that are wonderful,
Many others that love me,
but my heart breaks for you,
longs for you.

It feels so wrong to write you off,
like last year's toy when it's this November.
Am I so wrong to write you off?
I'm last year's toy on the shelf this November.
Do I just shut up and sit here?
Do I just collect all the dust?
Do I wait for you to remember me?
I wonder if you will remember me.

Tuesday, February 14, 2006

A Must See...



Nominated for the 3rd annual Las Vegas Film Critics Society awards.

New York Times, Lawrence Van Gelder,
"'Trekkies,' directed and edited by Roger Nygard, is a disarming documentary that takes a good-natured look at the hold that the 1966 television series and its sequels and film incarnations exert over millions of fans."

Boston Herald, Renee Graham,
***,
"Making fun of Trekkies...has always been rather like shooting fish in a barrel. ... So it says an awful lot about Roger Nygard's often-hilarious look at the 30-years-and-counting Star Trek phenomenon, and its fans in particular, that 'Trekkies' never really feels like a put down. It's all pretty funny, to be sure, but Nygard isn't so much interested in making fun of Trekkies as in taking a lighthearted look at their particular world, and just how far some have gone to honor their favorite television show. In 'Trekkies,' you can laugh with them, even as you're laughing at them." "The Trekkie phenomenon may fall short of common definitions of normalcy, but as a film, 'Trekkies' sure beats sleeping outside for days to see a mediocre movie about some galaxy far, far away."


The Cincinnati Enquirer, Margaret A. McGurk,
***,
"...a funny, far-ranging look at Trek fandom in all its eccentric glory. ...an utterly winning documentary based on repeated expeditions into the far horizons of Star Trek fandom. ... The filmmakers, alternately tickled and amazed at what they saw, returned from their mission with an affectionate, loopy and often hilarious portrait of a world unto itself. I say, don't let 'Trekkies' pass you by, this movie is more fun than a barrel of Tribbles."


San Francisco Bay Guardian, Arne Johnson,
"...an uncomfortably hilarious experience.... While delving into extremes that will make you laugh and possibly even scoff, Trekkies illuminates a kind of community that isn't that far from the rest of us. ... You will be astounded by many of the fans in this film...."



USA Today, Andy Seller,
***,
Director Roger Nygard's prime directive is to paint an affectionate, even sentimental portrait of the fans, no matter how weird they get on him. It's nice to be nice, but a little more deadpan wit and a little less mush would have made this movie a classic. Several characters cry out for a sharper satiric edge along the lines of 'Roger & Me' or Comedy Central's 'The Daily Show.' Instead there is much footage of cast members discussing what a wonderful thing Star Trek is and how the films and TV shows have given fans a reason to live. The stars never discuss the field that they obviously know best: the science of face-lifts and toupees. Oh, well."

Confucius Says on Candy Heart...

Your Candy Heart Says "Get Real"
You're a bit of a cynic when it comes to love.You don't lose your head, and hardly anyone penetrates your heart.
Your ideal Valentine's Day date: is all about the person you're seeing (with no mentions of v-day!)
Your flirting style: honest and even slightly sarcastic
What turns you off: romantic expectations and "greeting card" holidays
Why you're hot: you don't just play hard to get - you are hard to get

Really? They can fit all that on a candy heart?

Saturday, February 04, 2006

Think About It...

Went to a great place with great friends, and listened to a great band. They sang these lyrics that made me stop and think about it...

"My name is Judas. Someone had to be me."




Thursday, February 02, 2006

The Fairytale


I recently came across this song. Click on the picture and listen for yourself. Initially it sounded like an angry girl with a broken heart expelling her tendernesses toward some guy(those are a dime a dozen). I can think of times that I have felt this way, but over the past few years I've had a lot of healing in my heart towards those people. Anyway...

For whatever reason I was in a 'must read the lyrics' mode the other evening, so I looked them up. As I read through the lyrics, I found all sorts of relationships running through my head-- friendships that failed, dysfunction in my family, co-workers that I could have reached out to, me and God, people to who I was down right mean , and the ones that were mean to me.

The thoughts that saddened my heart, were the relationships that I have with or don't really have with 3 key people in my life. Lately I've felt 'But now we're not, Now it's not anything at all.' And I positively agree that 'The hardest part was getting this close to you, and giving up this dream I built with you. A fairytale that isn't coming true.' Oh how I wish things had turned out different with these people. I find myself always hoping that everything will turn out OK in the end, and we'll get to experience the fairytale.


Wishes

The saddest thing is you could be anything that you could want
We could have been everything
But now we’re not
Now it’s not anything at all

The hardest part was getting this close to you
And giving up this dream I built with you
A fairytale that isn’t coming true
You’ve got some growing up to do

CHORUS:
I wish we could have worked it out
I wish I didn’t have these doubts
I wish I didn’t have to wonder just what you are doing now

I wish I didn’t know inside
That it won’t work out for you and I
I wish that I could stop this wishing
And just say my last goodbye

After all the things you put me through
Tell me why I’m still in love with you
And why am I, why am I still waiting for your call

You broke my heart
I’m taking it back from you
I’m taking back the life that I gave to you
Life goes on before and after you
I’ve got some growing up to do…
CHORUS

It’s time I said my last goodbye
Goodbye
Goodbye
It’s time I said my last goodbye…
CHORUS

It’s time I said my last goodbye
Goodbye
Goodbye
It’s time I said my last goodbye